Regret with Love (Jutsu Training/Closed)

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Disani Xenoharu · Posted: Tue Jan 27, 2009 8:57 am Post subject:

She had seen the figure drop down so quickly making her digress from her path. Her next step upon her advancements through the wilds of the trees had become a grasp at the branch instead as she made her way down to the ground level to get on foot. Even then she can hear that voice calling out to her desperately, but she tried to ignore it. She wanted to ignore it like she had done everything else throughout her time. She had ignored those who had rebuked her for choosing such a path with her eyes that saw nothing, she ignored the voices that told her she couldn’t do anything by herself, and now she was ignoring the person that had left her with this ache within her for years and regrets that were now coming to surface that she wished not to say in fear that this person would leave her with the same feeling.

She had stopped running feeling her legs were too weak for some reason. It wasn’t physical limits, they were emotional. She had always ran from years from her feelings as she had even left one of her dearest partners alone in the village, but now she had returned pushing her away by avoiding her, just as she was trying to avoid this one. It was except he didn’t know when to quit. Falling to her knees and her legs spreading as she let her head be pillowed by a nearby tree’s bark that was only comfortable because of her dark hair that had grown overtime, she had let her misty eyes come to a hazy narrow as if she was under a spell.

”I don’t want to feel like this anymore…” she murmured lowly, ”…I don’t want good things to happen for a second only for them to be gone the next and hurt for an eternity.”

Just as how her birth she had came out seeing a world of beauty at a tender age only to progress in her young life to find the beautiful world of colors and sights to be a myth to her eyes the next. He had brought her back to that fantasy world that she had long forgotten only to make it become nothing more than a memory once more as she had roamed the world alone without color. Each time she had pictured this world without its color, she could remember when the leaves were green and the bark was brown. The water was as clear as the looking glass of a window. Colors were returning, and she had reached to her chest rubbing her fingers against where her heart was. She could even start to picture the warm red colors instead of the crystal form she would imagine for that which she thought was empty to dedicate herself to her goal and not to her limiting emotions.

”Renima sensei…please understand…” she had murmured lowly. She knew he could hear him. If this was truly her sensei, she knew him like the back of her hand as she held it in front of her face. She couldn’t see it, only perceive it was there. ”…I don’t want to remember these bonds anymore, because…I don’t want to be left alone anymore.”

Being alone would hurt for her. It hurt even worse when she was left there. If she had not met him, would her lonely feelings and everyone that frowned upon her for her indifference would let her be? Would she even be doing what she was doing if not for him? She would like to think so. Then again, she would rather not. She was confused again. Here was a person she owed so much to, but then again, here she was angry with him for leaving her alone to sulk and worry only to withdraw even after his friend had place the utmost belief in her because her sensei believed in her.

What choice was she to make now, not as a ninja, but as a young girl?
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airknight12 · Posted: Tue Jan 27, 2009 11:12 am Post subject:

Renima heard the words and almost died, but resisted the temptation and knelt down near her. He was close enough for her to feel his breath upon her face. This put him in a dangerous position if she wanted to fight, because Renima would not fight or react, he would do everything he could in his power to never hurt this girl again. His hands were at this side as he leaned over her, and admired what she had become, and broke inside for what he had done.

"Disani...I'm sorry. I Left you, I hurt you. I've caused you so much grief and pain. I have no right to be here, so close to you, wishing to remain with you. Please forgive me and my disregard. I’ve changed so much sense I've left. I'm no longer a shinobi in the terms it is taught, and I wish to never fight again unless I absolutely must. Life is to precious to end it so simply, to kill or be killed. There has to be more to life than this." His tears fell from his eyes and landed on her face and white dress. "Disani, if you want to run from me then run. I will not follow and I will truly die to you in this world. You will never see me again and I'll leave you to live your life as you wish. I don't want to harm you again, but if you want me, then grab me."

Renima couldn’t believe the words he was speaking, he didn’t know why he wanted to be with her so bad. Yes she was attractive but he had never been so swayed by a woman. Everything about her was stunning, far deeper than appearance, but everything about her.

occ: This whole romance thing isnt bothering you is it?
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Disani Xenoharu · Posted: Fri Jan 30, 2009 12:57 am Post subject:

Disani had heard him clearly at first, but his words had become a haze through her pain. She heard only the things that mattered as it felt like her heart was in a bind once again; a bind so tight that it seemed like it was going to erupt like those years ago where she found that someone really important to her had come and gone in such a very short time, even when it felt like she had known him almost forever by just sitting and watching him. She watched him with her very own eyes that he had helped see in full color.

She had reached out her hand as she grasped his clothing. She was silent as her misty eyes seemed to gaze off to nothing. She had felt like the little girl from years ago as she leaned towards him helpless with her shoulder pressed to his chest. Her eyes closed as she had felt all the more tired. Her lips parting slightly in her low mumble.

”No…don‘t go.”

(No, it's alright.)
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airknight12 · Posted: Fri Jan 30, 2009 5:44 pm Post subject:

Renima felt a flowing emotion fill his chest as she grabbed him. He was caught off guard and almost reacted in retaliation for he had never been embraced by a woman in such a way. No feeling in his life compared to the one she had just created in him. Without thinking he embraced her held her tight. Not so tight as to crush her but with the equal tenacity that he had already applied to him. He wasn’t sure what to say, for he loved her and the last thing he wanted was to hurt her again. Yet he knew he had to warn her. With his hands behind her back he used the same jutsu he had used to show her the beauty of this world, to show her it once again. He did his best to show every detail that was around them. He was showing Her the leafs as they looked in the fall, as the changed into the many values and hues before dieing for Renima was in that same stage of his life, but he would last much longer than the leafs.

"Disani...I must warn you, if you wish to be with me, if you stay with me you place your self in grave danger. I am no longer the Kage of Konoha but an outlaw to the entire world. I'm strong enough to protect you, but for how long? You'll have to become stronger Disani. I want you I desire you, but I don’t want to have you destroyed because I love you." He moved back and moved some of her hair out of the way of her eye. "I wish I could tell you how much you've meant to me and still mean to me but I don't have the poetic rhetoric to compare the world that you see to your own beauty. Please forgive me if I'm overstepping my bounds." He almost felt silly for his last sentence, of coarse he was overstepping his bounds but at the moment he doubted Disani was bothered by that.
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Disani Xenoharu · Posted: Mon Feb 02, 2009 6:45 pm Post subject:

Disani had opened her eyes, but only just a little. Her half opened gaze sat upon the colors as bright as they use to be so long ago before he was no more. This was proof. This was the proof that he was her sensei. She had felt the utmost guilt to doubt him as well as the utmost joy that she went back on her word. Even if it was just this once, she didn’t regret going back on her word to be strong in front of everyone. This person arms she had felt grasp her, this was the only person among the living she’d try to remain true to herself to. Even if that was so, hearing his next words suddenly made her word go into black and white once more. The Jutsu was still in effect, but she felt some sort of dread.

”Sensai….please forgive me.”

She had closed her eyes as she pushed away from him slowly and gently. She had sat on her knees upright as she placed her curled fingers unto the dress at her knees until she had balled them into firsts and grasped her dress. ”If what you say is true…then I‘m afraid that, I can seldom see you anymore, right?” she had said lowly as she opened her eyes. They were weak with the same sadness she always had shown as she closed her eyes and shook her head slowly.

”If that‘s so, then seeing you only means, I risk all that I dream to accomplish. I just want to be my best…even with these eyes as they are. I want to achieve it, and because of that, I feel…” she had muttered lowly as she had paused swallowing deeply. ”…then that means I must choose between remaining in the village, and between you….right?” she had looked up to him, fully aware of this, she had sat silently.

”I‘m afraid…I‘ll choose them.”

Her hand had reached to her back as she had drawn her wooden pole. She stamped it into the ground once as she lifted herself to her feet and stood up before him with her head down. She picked it up. She breathed in deeply looking ahead as she tried to be strong once more. She wanted to be what she vowed to be.

”…my wish was, if you were alive, I wanted to know the truth. Now that I know, then I know I can go on and try to be as strong as you believed me to be. That doesn‘t mean however that I will turn my back on you sensei. I want to be with you again, and walk around the village like the girl I use to, but I know now that I‘m a young woman, and because of that, I know I have responsibilities to follow if I am to not let what you‘re taught me go to waste.”

She had made her declaration. She was going to strive to improve her skills and become the strong Ninja she had declared to be. The figure in front of her that was known as her sensei was partially alive. He wasn’t he noble Kage, but now an outcast, and because of that, she had to choose. Her heart felt like it was being torn into two. She had taken her determination into her palm and tossed her love to him to keep, and not for her to go with him there to share it.

This was her choice, her trade-off of her decision.
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airknight12 · Posted: Mon Feb 02, 2009 7:24 pm Post subject:

Renima felt her let go and back away to stand firm against him as he was still on his knees. It would be a strange sight for anyone to see, a bind women hovering over the once great Renima. He heard her words, and part of him felt stung, but that faded as fast as it had come. As she continued a feeling of pride came over Renima as he looked at this fair princess, become something more in life. He stood up and looked at the girl, with a smile on his face.

A moment of silence seemed to overtake them both, as Renima allowed her words to hand in tha air. He embraced them in spirit was joyful. He wanted and needed someone who he knew he could trust to remain in Konoha and seek its betterment. He wanted to watch from the shadows as much as from her side as she became something like this world had never seen. As for himself he was amongst the dieing breed, one of the last of the legendary. He had made his mark, now it was time to form his legacy, and he believed he could continue it on by helping the many young souls in Konoha to not make the same mistakes that his predecessors, himself, and his successor had made.

The wind blew through the air, causing both of their hair to move in the force of it, and slightly pull on the him of her dress, and his cloak. Many leafs seemed to fall from the tree's and form around them both in a beautiful display of color, captivating them in a tornado of fall beauty. "Disani, these swirling leaves are an illusion, they really did fall, but I can't control them. Its a beautiful thing, and I wished to share it with you. At the same time, your are one of these falling leafs, just as I once was. You will eventually die, just as I will, and every other poor soul is cursed with. However you can chose what you do on your way down, and what you do before fading away. You can desire what imprint you leave on this world..." He paused and made the leaves stop.

Then he showed a moment when he was a child. Kumo, Rio, and Himself were eating at a ramen stand, waiting on Sasiko sensei to show up. He was the Hokage at the time, and the three all were explaining there goals in life. It seemed that only Renima had obtained such a goal. Kumo died early on, Rio rejected Konoha and is now dead. "I remain, unlike my two brothers. However I share the same fate, I am gone from Konoha, but unlike them I will do everything I can to help it Grow. Disani, I love you...do me this one favor because of that love I have bestowed upon you. Become something great, Become strong, and be a benefit to Konoha. Fill it with the beauty that is in you, fill it with love and care. Do something to Rid this world of the violence it is falling into and return to the peace that I created, but a lasting peace, for Konoha. I know you can do it. " He paused and took a step forward, then he reached up with his hand and touched her velvety cheek. "Disani, protect everything of virtue in Konoha, don't become corrupted by Ukyo, don't make the mistakes of your predecessors. I will be watching, and helping you all I can." Renima then paused and looked into her eyes, allowing her to stare into his own. "May I kiss you...." He paused and turned. "I’m sorry I'm a foolish man..." He started to walk away, hoping she would stop him.

Occ: Disani, work to become strong and become a Jounin. Become legendary like Renima, Sasiko, Everwill, and Zieg.
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Disani Xenoharu · Posted: Thu Feb 05, 2009 3:48 pm Post subject:

”Any illusion you create is real enough for me.”

Was that a foolish thing to say? It probably was, so she let it slip through her mind as a thought as she watched the leaves swirl about. She had placed her hand along her right cheek as she could feel warmth. It was somewhat draft out, but she was pretty sure she felt warmth like any other her young body had felt. She had listened to his words as he spoke. His praises had never made her change the feelings she had felt back then. They were the same words that would miss her head and go to her heart leaving their influence. As he said, she would have to leave a print upon this world, but what kind would that be exactly? Such a task sounded so difficult and hard. It would be required of her undeniable faith.
Didn’t she have that?

She had simply nodded her head recognizing his favor. A promise was made with that acknowledgement. The moment he had asked for a kiss, she simply stared at him, eyes heavily showing such a hesitant emotion. It wasn’t the feelings she had towards him that were hesitant, it was the feeling of faint that she felt. She had dearly wanted to fulfill that favor to him just as she would the first that he asked of her. She however was quiet and let the air still as he walked away. She was quiet seeing him appear faint as she had reached her right hand to her heart and felt it’s beat that had skipped longer than one would imagine. It thumped powerfully as if an angry side of her had raged for letting her desire escape.

”Hey! What are you doing?!!”

Her mind had raged out with a cry.

Her feet moved so quickly. It didn’t matter her rank, because this was as fast as she moved before, and it only took a leap and a kick off of a tree. With her wooden pole upon her back, she had swung her body using her hands to sway from a reaching branch that was just right for her slingshot. She swung forward as the air had raced to her face as she could see the figure of her sensai just below her before she landed kneeling down from her footing. She was nearly off balanced from the height she had tossed herself. If she hadn’t known any better, this feeling in her heart almost made her touch the sky with the way she had tossed herself skyward.

She whipped around, her hands securing around the waste tucking beneath his jacket. Her right hand reaching upward to touch that gentle skin of his cheek she always dreamed of touching. She tip toed as much as she could until she teetered on the sandals’ edges and her lean was reliant on how much of her weight her little body had pressed along his chest. She pulled herself close with eyes that seemed dreamily stricken in a hypnotic haze before her lips had pressed against his.

This was it…her first kiss.

It was only a few seconds in that she had felt that it was more than just a granted kiss of a favor, but it was one of a lover the way she locked them. She resisted every urge of her being to not take her feelings even further and grab him in any desirable way. She had lifted her soft lips from his own as she had let herself lean forward on his chest with her arms around him and eyes closed as she breathed in deeply in satisfaction.

A kiss was enough…just a kiss. She told herself this.

”When I fulfill that favor, please…come find me…Renima-sensai.”

She asked this of him. She only asked this one thing of him.
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airknight12 · Posted: Fri Feb 06, 2009 4:40 pm Post subject:

Renima was caught of guard. A woman had never kissed him wish such passion. He wished that moment would not end as the blood pored into his lips and sealed a covenant for his love with Disani before she pulled away. His breath was literally stolen from him, as he looked at the young girl who was so close to him. Her lips were like velvet, and tasted sweet to him. He wasn’t sure if it was just the pleasure of the moment that gave him that flavor, or something on her lips. Her hair was so soft and beautiful as he held it in his hand while he hugged her.

Renima wished to stay still and let that moment last forever, as he looked into her eyes that had only see what was shown to her by his illusions. He had always shown her exactly what was around them, and never altered it, he had only shown her the world as it was allowed her to create her own thoughts, dreams, and desires. Yet as he did that, he same how became among those thoughts, dreams, and Desires. He almost felt guilty, but he knew that his love for her and the love she had for him was innocent, and pure. it wasn’t something he had created in her or in himself with an illusion, but this was the true emotions of two human beings.

"Disani...I will return, I will watch, and I will continue to live until this life won't let me live her any longer. If something happens to me, find a boy who will love you and treat you as you should be. Give him the blessing of having you as a wife if he is worthy." Renima then kissed her again, with a bit of force and passion, then sucking on her lip for a second and pulling his mouth back as her lip slowly slipped back out. "You should go for now Disani...Remember...become strong"
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Disani Xenoharu · Posted: Tue Feb 10, 2009 2:45 pm Post subject:

((Sorry! I’m very busy. Test week.))

Disani had let her right hand slide along his chest as she stood back listening to him. Her eyes gazing towards him as the illusion held true to color her world still. She had pressed her lips to seem serious once more. Her head giving a hesitant nod hearing him. Her heart conflicting as she slowly stepped backed while her hand slid down along his chest. Slowly…and slowly…and until she pulled her hand back and placed it upon her own chest, she was silent. She had swallowed deeply knowing if she turned around and headed back for the villiage, this would be one of few times they would be able to see each other.

She savored this sight as she stepped slowly. She eventually whipped around quickly and ran off leaping and taking to the tree top branches to gain some distance.

As she had went further from the woods, away from him, the illusionary jutsu started to fade. The colors had started to turn back into black and white, and soon, the hues were nothing but darkness as she had to use her ears to bring some color back to her world, even if it was black and white. Even if those hues were gone, he was to be gone, she still remembered them well, like she always did. For both of those sights in her life time, she knew one more thing….

She loved them both, sincerely.

[Left Thread]
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airknight12 · Posted: Tue Feb 10, 2009 8:10 pm Post subject:

occ: its fine. Glad to roleplay with you one more time.

Renima smiled as he watched his young princess run back to what he knew she must do. He couldnt wait to see what she manged to accomplish. He knew that his influence was enough to drive her to the ends of the world to fullfill the promise she had made him. Renima knew he could manipulate her easily, and because of that He was glad she ran from him for he didn't want any part in that. He wanted her to become someone strong, not someone he could throw away at his whim. He knew that later on he would need strong companions and she would be among the strongest. He smiled again and decided to leave Konoha for now.

[left thread]

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Inventory: 10 kunai,10 shuricken,50 senboms. 15 explosive tags, 300feet of wire, 3 traps. Daggar, =enoreth the blade of wind.3 soldier pill, 1 adrenline shot. all types of gas, 3 universal grenades, and a gas mask.

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